06.02.2007 01.48pm
I've got no excuse for the long absence, except to say that I haven't been terribly happy for at least 6 months and I'm pretty sure no one should be forced to read about my unhappiness. But I've been inspired to return to blogging by a friend who just visited us this week. So first things first: there are some things I need to get off my chest:
WORK
I wasn't happy at firm #1, so I switched firms. That didn't make me happy -- instead, I realized almost immediately that I had made a terrible mistake but I tried to stick around to see if things would get better. Unfortunately, they too thought I had made a terrible mistake and fired me in April.
So now I'm not happy about my lack of employment. I'm job-hunting, fairly vigorously, but I'm finding very little that actually attracts my interest. I keep thinking of going to yet another law firm just to gain employment. But I know that's just a terrible idea. I am thinking of switching practice areas for a while, to gain experience in a field of work that I've always been fascinated by. We'll see how that goes.
HOME
Thanksgiving sucked. I think I've talked about it with most anyone who would actually be reading this, but suffice to say, Mom and I haven't spoken since then. Questions were also raised about Chris' mom, which in turn has lead me to question each decision that has lead me to this particular homelife.
Well, almost every decision. Chris and kitty are still very much crucial to my well-being. But I don't like our condo, I don't like our roommate, I don't like feeling very much stuck with the situation at hand.
PLAY
Last vacation was a mixed bag. I tried to enjoy myself, but I learned that it's very important to choose your traveling companions carefully. In addition, we completely forgot to reschedule our tickets at Steppenwolf and Court Theater, missing two plays while we were gone. One of which has been garnering rave reviews. Due to the lack of employment, we really can't afford to buy another set of tickets to see it.
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I find I must actively keep an eye on the bigger picture: we live in an awesome neighborhood, we've got the most adorable kitty in the world, Chris and I will get through all this even stronger and better than we were before, we've got sufficient funds to keep our roof over our heads for a good, long while as I job hunt... And really, how much right do I have to complain when one of my complaints is about a disappointing vacation?
I also find that focusing on the little things is helpful: it's sunny, breezy, and warm today. I've spent the entire morning on the balcony, drinking coffee, eating strawberries and surfing on the web. Later today, Chris and I will head out to celebrate an old friend's birthday. How bad can life be when I have days like today?
posted by ginia
10.31.2006 02.19am
Some random thoughts...
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in honor of election day next week, a liberal dream:
1. Dems take both houses.
2. Both Cheney and Bush get impeached.
3. We get our first female president for a couple of years.
4. Pelosi then steps down for Obama in 2008.
Somewhere in there, the party manages to get its head out of its ass and figures out how to lead, instead of merely reacting to bad leadership.
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I love our neighborhood. I just wish I loved our home.
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I think Al Franken put it best: Rush Limbaugh is a big, fat idiot.
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When did the summer end? Let's not talk about how many birthdays I've missed... Let alone all the summer projects I didn't get around to...
posted by ginia
06.08.2006 11.37pm
I've got two new favorite movies: Before Sunrise and Before Sunset. Taken together, they beautifully chronicle the miracle of the instant, honest connection between two people. The story struck a chord with me -- I've had a few all-night gabfests with guys. Sparking with someone was easy. But staying interested, and interesting, is something completely different.
I guess I got lucky.
posted by ginia
06.08.2006 10.14pm
So I'm waiting for a bus and I see a shiny new ad for the new Superman movie. Two thoughts:
1. Did Singer title the movie "Superman Returns" just to echo the sentiment behind "Batman Return" (reboot of the franchise)?
2. Dang! The new Superman looks a lot like Chris Reeve!
I find myself strangely blah about this movie. Odd in that I was gung-ho about last summer's Batman flick. One key difference: I thought the first two Superman flicks with Reeve got the Superman/Clark Kent characters right, whereas I've always believed that Michael Keaton was miscast as Bruce Wayne (he was a pretty cool Batman though). Christian Bale was pitch perfect for both though. what room is there for this new Superman to contribute?
Oh well... At least the new guy is dead sexy in blue tights.
posted by ginia
03.16.2006 09.25pm
i've been working through feelings of disconnection lately. to that end, i've been trying to be a better sister, a better daughter, a better partner (i still hate identifying myself as a "wife") and a better friend.
so i reconnected with an old friend yesterday. on one level, i wanted to spend much more time on the phone with him than i did, but i need some time to digest the re-establishment of the relationship.
when i was 16, i remember talking to my friend jordan about another mutual friend named jordan, and how jordan #2 was the kind of fellow who would just drop in and out of your life quite randomly. i've become that friend myself, which i do find odd because i was once fierce about my friends. i wish i knew what happened.
i take that back -- i think i do know what happened. true love. it's not meant to be a cop-out (although i suspect it is), but i really cut myself off from everybody for months when i first met chris and i don't think the majority of my relationships ever fully recovered. i'm not sure the majority of chris' relationships did either. it's cheesy, but the center of my universe truly did shift.
our wedding anniversary is on sunday, but it's not something we're fussing over. no dinner plans, no travel plans, nada. i still don't think it's the important/defining day of our relationship and the longer we're together, the more convinced of that i become. we'll have been together for 10 years next year -- that means so much more to me than a pretty-close-to-random wedding anniversary...
still, i've got to find ways to make more room in my heart for my friends. because i do love them tremendously and i think about many old friends all the time, even if i've lost touch with some and even if i owe some an email or a phone call.
posted by ginia
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